I’m tired.
I don’t think I feel challenged at the moment. I’m also gaining interests in areas other than straight networking. I started teaching part-time two years ago and I’m getting real interested in training as a career. I still like the “work” aspect of IT but training would give me more time – I think – to do the stuff I want to do.
I think I want my own company. The current save-a-penny,waste-a-pound nature of my current employer is getting on my nerves. I don’t spend money needlessly but getting cash for a tiny run of fibre is next to impossible.
Ideally I’d like to do training and consultancy. I’d keep a small staff all using Mac OS X. I’d also hire at least one Cocoa-capable programmer who would split his time between doing “work” projects and the rest contributing to Mac OS X-related open source projects. I’d like that a lot…especially the last bit. It’s a bit of a dream I have.
With the current outsourcing murmurs and the terrible fears of closing sites and whatnot I’m beginning to feel nervous. I don’t want to be outsourced. I was ambivalent before but now I’m pretty convinced that it’s a bad move despite the bonus they pay. If the site was closed I’d be looking for another job anyway. I’m not sure what’s out there – or even if I can command the same salary from another company. My current employer needs me while they have the site open. A new employer would have to get to know me I guess.
Pretty depressing huh? The upshot is that I’d take a lower salary if the working conditions were right…not that I know whether or not I can afford to take a lower salary…due to the house and whatever else.
Back to dreaming.